I seem to only want to blog when I am at work.

I have been having quite the tumultuous time since I discovered that a very good friend of mine from school passed away a year ago, the only reason why i didn't find out was because the other friend who sent out the obituary sent it to my old email that bounced back, and everyone assumed I knew because I knew her. I was more freaked out because she had contacted me just before this happened and like the duffer I am, I thought that happened just a month or two ago this year.

To deal with this news I spoke to her mom, who has requested that I write about the memories I have of her. I met up with the other friend a couple of days ago, and while I was looking for answers, all I got were facts that did not quite add up and just a glimpse of how much despair she might have been in. I haven't gotten down to writing anything. And while I do want to drop by her place to talk to her mom some more, I am feeling very unsettled about the whole ordeal. It doesn't help that I can be quite dark and twisty like she used to be. The world hasn't made very much sense lately.

To add to that, the fact that the people at York were being so slow with sending out my official offer letter and saying things like my application was a "special case" that needed approval and so "we hope to have good news for you", compounded my agitation. I was frustrated to hear all that nonsense one and a half months into having been offered a place by the admissions tutor. Fortunately all my grief ended when I received an email last night saying that my letter was coming in by express airmail. phew~!


All I can focus on now is, of all things, my personal financial situation. Ridiculous bills to pay, no savings to pay them with, all of which roll-over and build up. I took some time to indulge myself these past two weeks and suddenly I am facing the fact that I did so with "money I don't have". I am figuring out a way to maintain my sanity amidst these logistical problems my brain has no room for. I can only hope for work to pay me on time, which has proved to be a difficult task for them to, time and again.


Seeing that this post is a huge break from my traditional frivolity around here, I am posting up youtubes of a TV character from the show Dinosaurs back in the early 90s that captures what my dear mad nephew is like. Enjoy!

Labels: Nephew, Rantings, TV

savoirefaire blogged at 10:47 AM



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